The Big Black Moth || Fear


The big black moth and me. Me holding a food cover as my shield and a tennis racket as my weapon. My sister was in my room asking me if I killed it yet. Unfortunately, I’m not the killing type. Poor moth has a life to live, a purpose, going into other people’s house and scaring the poop out of them… to help them fight their fears of course! It’s a silly thought, but it makes sense.

In the process of waiting and thinking and staring at this ‘enormous little’ moth, a still small voice told me “Do not fear, for the Lord is with you” and I kept repeating this to myself, telling the Lord “Okay okay, I’ll do it” but the more I get closer to the moth, the more I see how big and scary it is. I backed out and apologize to God for the lack of trust. “Why does it have to be so big?” I whined.

The Lord was testing my faith, and I knew that- but I was just focused on the moth. Man, that’s one huge fly. Anyway, I think God knew that I wouldn’t be able to trap the moth so He brought daddy home just in time. And you know what? He calmly took a small plastic bottle, cut it into half and trapped the moth, covering the bottle with paper, opening the window, and setting it free. It was that simple. For dad, the big black moth was simply nothing more than a small black fly.

Dad was aware of it’s size, he must have been scared at some point. But somehow he knew that it had to get out of this house and flee. As I pondered on this little incident, the big black moth resembled fear. Who of you have big black moths in your life? and how did you conquer it? or are you yet to…?

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Kids, Patience, & A Loose Tooth!


You would think that the bus is the best place to rest in peace… apparently, mine is filled with fighting kids, crying kids, and.. kids, AND their excessive use of “vulgar” words, the most common being, ‘Liar’ and ‘Mean’.

Lalala~ Its fun though… I mean the kids 😀 They’re pretty nice to be with when they aren’t constantly yapping and whining. I laughed when my sister faced me and said “So that’s why you hate kids?”. I guess I needed to be patient and more loving. Maybe that’s why God placed me with these children. Smart…. and Sneaaaky!

They are still kids, so it’s pretty hard to teach them a lesson. I remember me and my troubles when I was younger, and weirdly enough, my sister is having the same problems as well. It gets pretty annoying when they don’t understand- but if was able to figure these conflicts out- with the help of Jesus and my family- then through God’s timing, maybe my sister will find it out soon 🙂

BTW, she’s experiencing her first LOOSE TOOTH! Moving it back and forth with her finger or tongue. I wonder how she’s dealing with it. If she’s excited, or if she’s nervous… Anyway! One of the kids in the bus told my sister “Stop moving it! It’s scary”, pointing directly at my sister’s tooth. I kinda got irritated with her and told her it was rude to say ‘scary’ and point at other people. She pouted her lips, getting all teary eyed and said “You’re so bad, why are you being mean to me?”. At this point, I felt like -uggh!- sooo annoyed, but I didn’t want her to cry any further so I forced out a smile and distracted her from our current topic, she stopped crying and giggled a little. I wish I felt a little sympathy and love- I’m still working on it though.

After dealing with the kid, I faced my sister who was still angry at the girl, so I tried to calm her down- ’cause if she’s angry now, she’ll be angry back home, which will make me angry, and stuff will happen. Sibling rivalry and all. Thank the Lord it’s all right, right now 😀

Back to the loose tooth topic! I suddenly wish I could experience it again…

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I do not own this picture

Flashback

I watched my dad as he tied a string to the base of my tooth, “Daaaad don’t make it fast okay? Just slow, like this” I slowly tugged the string, making sure I didn’t put much force to it. “Yes yes, I will” he said while looking intently at my mouth, then gave me a smile of assurance- or at least, that’s what I thought it looked like, 

“Ready?” asked dad, lightly holding the string, a smile on his face

“Sloooowly” (>_<“) I reminded him, nervously moving my tooth back and forth with the tip of my tongue,

“I will I will” 

Then suddenly WOOSH! (O_O…) *silence*

“See? it wasn’t that bad” said dad, laughing 

I touched the area where my ‘once-loose-tooth’ was located, still shocked by the quick pull of the string. When I felt that the tooth was no longer in its place…

WAAAAAAH! WAAAAHH!

and it didn’t even hurt….

End of Flashback

Sigh… I miss those days :’) *sniff sniff* Dad even experimented with it and tied the string to the knob of the door, thinking that once you slam the door shut, the force would be enough to pull- or RIP! the tooth out. It didn’t work though, I still remember it- not very clearly though- but I recall dad laughing (._.”) Yay… thanks dad. xD Well! I’ve learnt a lot today 🙂 and recalled some funny moments in the past~ which gives us another good reason of why we should PRAISE THE LORD! ❤ LOVE YOU PAPA JESUS!

PS. Please pray for my voice, it’s kind of lost, I don’t know why it even decided to run away in the first place. Just please pray for it to come back 😥 huhuhu I have to sing for our Church’s Anniversary in 2 days! and I really want to make the Lord proud, if not a good voice, then please also pray to keep away the fear and nervousness I feel. Thank you all! God bless you! ❤

Bible Verse of The Week || Take The Log Out Off Your Eye


James 1:19
Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;

Matthew 7:3-5
“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

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I do not own this picture

I have this friend who ALWAYS wants to win an argument and is very straightforward. Whenever I share something to her, most of the time she would just shrug and say “Oh I know it already- A looooong time ago”

And I felt irritated and annoyed every single time- it just ruins my day. I would mentally concoct an idea on how to tell her about her carelessness and attitude. I told my dad about my problem and he told me to ‘let it go and just listen’, honestly I felt disappointed with the answer, it wasn’t what I expected him to say. Until I passed by this bible verse and I felt bad about my judgement towards my friend.

First, I have to take the plank out of my own eye, and then I I will see clearly to remove the speck from her eye.

Have a good day Jesus lovers! God bless ya’ll ❤

Happy Father’s Day JESUS! <3


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HAPPY Father’s day guys! Especially You Jesus! We LOVE You! We will lift Your name on high and glorify You!  ❤

Today is a very special day… its Father’s day!  There are many people who have lost their parents, who doesn’t have a father, who is abused by their father, who hasn’t seen their father since birth. Well I will tell you today, that you still have a father and that is your Father in heaven. Don’t forget that.

You still have a billion reasons to sing…

Shopping Hero!


Credits to: Google

Credits to: Google

Me and my dad went to shop for a new phone cover for moi, and apparently, this phone cover we were shopping for costs 35 aed (and a screen for my phone, additional 10, yeees I am spoiled), so all in all it costs 45. Too expensive for just a phone cover and a screen, so me and dad decided to get a discount… Me being, well, like my dad, I don’t go shopping much and I am a little shy, BUT we were able to lower it down to 40 instead of 45 aed.

Anyways, mom came and also decided to buy a phone cover AND guess what? The phone cover costs 45 aed and she lowered it down to 35 ._.” too bad she wasn’t happy with it’s quality… You see, my mom has this hawk-eyes, she could find any flaws of the things she (was supposed to) get in an instant. In short, the gurl is giiiiiifted!

But, don’t underestimate my dad… God gave him hawk-eyes as well, dad knows when he spots something beautiful… that’s how he got mom ;D

Answered Prayer… literally…


Psalm 34:17

The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.

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So, I have been hurting the past few weeks… I am not gonna state the reason for it is too personal but I am gonna share my story of my prayer being answered.

As I human being, I use to have the tendency to think or worry too much, that I am already missing what is right in front of me. Then I feel this ‘pang’ in my chest or something like that. [Note: This is a serious topic for me and a little touchy. So to those who don’t like mushy stuff, please continue reading. It’s worth it.]

If you guys are hurting, in pain, or something in between, just know that God always has a reason and that He makes everything good at it’s time… If this hadn’t happened, then I wouldn’t be able to talk to God would I?

In problems like these, I always have the need to talk to an elderly (besides my parents). I was able to talk to an elderly in church. She told me to pray. She comforted me. And I thank her for that. I was able to do what she instructed me to do. And with God’s help, I was able to do it…

So, here it goes….

My Testimony

“Lord when will I talk to my dad about my problem? When will I confront Him?” I ask the Lord.

“When the time is right, my child.” He replies.

I kind of doubted a bit. I was thinking if it was me talking to myself… or if it was really God…

“I was thinking of getting baptized, Lord.”

“That’s good news”

“I love you, Jesus”

“I love you too, child”

I started tearing up with joy and grinning widely.

“I hope my parents won’t see me crying, Lord”

….

“Oh wait! I want them to see me cry, so they will pity me” [Note: I kind of laughed at my childishness here. I really wanted them to pity me]

Then… my father entered my room…

He asked “What is the problem, Dannelle?”

I didn’t answer. I was angry and hurting.

My mom then called my dad for some help. This gave me the time to ask God.

“God? Is right NOW the time?”

and the Lord answered “Yes.”

“Please give me the courage”

My dad came back to the room, and we talked… I found that my dad was really patient and calm. One thing I like about my dad. He knows how to control himself.

Honestly, the problem wasn’t the same problem I had before… I don’t even remember the problem anymore.

But I felt so blessed to have a father like him.

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If you guys have a problem and you feel alone. Like no one in the world can help you… always remember, that God is always behind your back.

And that was my testimony… Hope you guys could learn something from it… God Bless! ❤

 

I Know.


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My dad always reminds me that:

” Whenever someone is teaching, reminding, or helping you, do not answer with an ‘I know’ instead, say ‘thank you’ for their effort to show they care. “

There are times, when people would always remind me to do something and I answer with a rude “I know, I know” oblivious to the fact that I have somewhat hurt their feelings.

Not many people know this.

One time, I was telling my friend about being able to use the computer lab and use the internet at school, she was sooo excited, then her friend came and said “We already know that” and I felt kind of… deflated…

‘They knew?’ I remember thinking.

Well isn’t that a bummer? I wonder what would it feel like to say “I love you” to someone but not being able to hear it back because they ‘claim’ they already know…

I know God loves me and God knows I love him. He already knows everything. But God wants us to talk to Him. He wants us to have a relationship with Him. Even though He already knows.

Dedicated to: My daddy, Byron Pacis.

I am familiar with all your ways ~ Psalm 139:3