Casting Your Worries & Anger Away (testimony)

I’ve felt a lot busy this time around, I turned into a worrywart in just 1 month, I easily anger, and I basically drifted away from God. Today I got so stressed and so angry at my sister (just because she didn’t want to eat) that I screamed at her so hard, I have NEVER screamed like that in my whole life. I was so filled with rage that it scared me. I cried- a real cry that includes loud sobbing and lots of tears. I missed God. I needed Him. I felt like a monster that it hurts so much. I was so filled with rage I even imagined doing something really bad to my sister. And that scared me- to the point that I felt like I was about to turn crazy. Please pray for me. I was really scared, I just needed to get out of it and give some of my time to God, I’m letting it all go… it hurts so bad, you know? So, I’m letting it go and just leave everything to God. If you are feeling what I am feeling right now- here’s a short story that might help 🙂 God bless ya’ll! 

No time for God:

No Time for God- Part 1
No time for God- Part 2

Letting Go Of Anger

Madolyn now stays cool in situations that used to send her into a rage.
Madolyn Cavazos as told to Karen Langley
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What did you say?” I glared at the other waitress.

“You heard me,” she shot back.

It was true. I had heard. She’d made a racist comment about my Mexican family.

“If you have a problem, we can talk in private, not in front of the customers,” I said icily.

I felt my temper rising, but I kept calm. Then she pushed me on our way to the break room. I warned her to quit, and she pushed me again. My anger exploded, and I punched her in the face.

The manager fired both of us on the spot. Without a word, I grabbed my keys and marched out of the restaurant. She deserved what she got, I thought as I slammed my car door.

My temper hadn’t always been so explosive. In eighth grade, it took all the courage I had to stand up for a girl who was often teased. From that day on, the bullies picked on me instead—at lunch, in the hallways and after school.

A group of girls followed me home from school almost every day, calling me names and shouting rude comments about my Mexican heritage. I took the abuse without saying a word. But inwardly, my heart screamed. I felt scared, ashamed and angry.

When I started high school, I made friends with some of the upperclassmen on my softball team. They warned the bullies to back off. With friends behind me, I found the courage to stand up for myself. One day freshman year, I overheard a couple of girls gossiping about me. I yelled and swore at them and warned them to get off my back. My intense reaction surprised me. I guess all that built-up anger was bound to spill out sooner or later. Pretty soon, my fiery temper earned me a reputation as someone who wouldn’t take bullying from anyone. I started talking tough and even got into a few fistfights.

Even though I was a Christian, I hadn’t allowed God into this angry part of my life. Then something happened to change all that. At youth group one Sunday night, two guys got into a shouting match, and one of them shoved the other to the floor. The next week, they stood in front of the group and apologized to each other, to us and to God. One of the guys read Proverbs 22:24 (NIV): “Do not make friends with a hot-tempered man, do not associate with one easily angered.”

The words hit me like a blow to the gut. That verse is talking about me.

And what was it saying? Don’t be friends with angry, hot-tempered me. I thought about the fights … the people I’d yelled at … being fired from my job. I thought about a guy from school who had made a rude comment to me a couple days earlier. I’d backed him against a locker and warned him never to mess with me again. What kind of person have I become?

The next day at school, I took my seat next to the boy I’d threatened. When our teacher passed back some homework, I handed him his paper.

“Thanks,” he said.

“You’re welcome.”

My friend at the desk ahead of mine turned around and stared at me in shock. I felt stunned, too. Where did that come from? Normally, I would have antagonized the kid for at least a week. After class my friend asked me what the deal was, and I told her something had happened at church to change my attitude.

I’ve noticed a lot of changes in my life these days. I’ve even tried to say I’m sorry to people I’ve hurt with my anger. I also have been biting my tongue—something I never used to do. I find I’m able to stay cool in situations that used to send me into a rage. In spite of all the positive changes, I still get angry and swear sometimes, and I feel frustrated and wonder if I’ll ever get things right. I know if it were up to me, I wouldn’t. Thankfully, it’s not. I know Christ is working on my heart to change me little by little from the inside out.


Why Did God Create Evil?

At first it might seem that if God created all things, then evil must have been created by God. However, evil is not a “thing” like a rock or electricity. You cannot have a jar of evil. Evil has no existence of its own; it is really the absence of good. For example, holes are real but they only exist in something else. We call the absence of dirt a hole, but it cannot be separated from the dirt. So when God created, it is true that all He created was good. One of the good things God made was creatures who had the freedom to choose good. In order to have a real choice, God had to allow there to be something besides good to choose. So, God allowed these free angels and humans to choose good or reject good (evil). When a bad relationship exists between two good things we call that evil, but it does not become a “thing” that required God to create it.

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Perhaps a further illustration will help. If a person is asked, “Does cold exist?” the answer would likely be “yes.” However, this is incorrect. Cold does not exist. Cold is the absence of heat. Similarly, darkness does not exist; it is the absence of light. Evil is the absence of good, or better, evil is the absence of God. God did not have to create evil, but rather only allow for the absence of good.

God did not create evil, but He does allow evil. If God had not allowed for the possibility of evil, both mankind and angels would be serving God out of obligation, not choice. He did not want “robots” that simply did what He wanted them to do because of their “programming.” God allowed for the possibility of evil so that we could genuinely have a free will and choose whether or not we wanted to serve Him.

As finite human beings, we can never fully understand an infinite God (Romans 11:33-34). Sometimes we think we understand why God is doing something, only to find out later that it was for a different purpose than we originally thought. God looks at things from a holy, eternal perspective. We look at things from a sinful, earthly, and temporal perspective. Why did God put man on earth knowing that Adam and Eve would sin and therefore bring evil, death, and suffering on all mankind? Why didn’t He just create us all and leave us in heaven where we would be perfect and without suffering? These questions cannot be adequately answered this side of eternity. What we can know is whatever God does is holy and perfect and ultimately will glorify Him. God allowed for the possibility of evil in order to give us a true choice in regards to whether we worship Him. God did not create evil, but He allowed it. If He had not allowed evil, we would be worshipping Him out of obligation, not by a choice of our own will.

Credits: Deliver Us from Evil : Restoring the Soul in a Disintegrating Culture
By: Ravi Zacharias…


My comment:

But in Isaiah 45:7 it clearly states that God created evil. I’ve researched about it and there were lots and lots of debates on this topic and I was just stuck in between. I will write a post about it some other time. Until then, have a good night and God bless! ❤ Though there are lots of things I still do not understand, I believe in God.


Stressed Out… But School Hasn’t Started Yet.

School is ONE WEEK away and I am really stressed out just thinking about school work, home work, tests, exams, quizzes, friends, teachers, etc. I start to make a  mental schedule in my head every night which makes it hard for me to sleep and it’s giving me a headache! Do you guys have the same problem? Well… I found a great antidote!

Luke 10:41-42

But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”

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How to Cure Stress?

  1.  Do NOT think of negative things. This is why you’re stressing out in the first place! When you think negatively, this leads you to…
  2. Worry. Now let me tell you this, worrying is a sin. How? It’s all said in Romans 14:23 Whatever is not from faith, is sin. Worry is also a type of fear and fear is the opposite of faith. No one can worry and pray at the same time – Max Lucado.
  3. Loosen up! School’s supposed to be a fun and educative experience, not stressful and boring.
  4. Let God in. He wants to be with you and help you in any possible way! Just pushing Him out of the problem… is a problem.
  5. Be content. Look around you and see, you are very very blessed. Stop focusing on the bad things.
  6. Give yourself a rest. Lay down in bed, drink some coffee, eat some cupcakes. Just to keep your mind of your problems. Mark 6:31 Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest”
  7. Talk to God. Need someone to talk to? Need someone to vent out all those negative feelings? Well, God is there for you 24/7. Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

    James 1:12

    Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.


Is Worrying a Sin? 

32 Ways to Start School Year Right

Bible verses

Modesty is POWER! || Advice for girls

I read this really cool Christian book about Modesty and let me tell you- I’ve learnt A LOT! At first, I was like, Pssh! I know about modesty, just wear proper clothes and VOILA! You’re modest! But what I didn’t know was that modesty wasn’t all about the clothes you wear, but also about the way you act. Especially around men…

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I do not own this picture

Of course, most of us girls like attention. We want to be the one’s who “turn heads”. Me and my dad were walking around the mall one day and spotted two russian ladies wearing very tight and very short dresses that showed off their curves and flawless legs. I looked down at my flubbery-looking calves and then stared at the two women feeling slightly jealous, and I hate to admit this but- I want to be the one turning heads. I looked at my dad through the corner of my eyes, hoping he wasn’t staring at them too. Instead, he was watching mom with an amused twinkle in his eyes as she checked out the two women herself. I chuckled mentally, so mom’s feeling the same way I feel~ Jealousy. But then I look at my dad, the way he stares at mom with love filled in his eyes. Why do we need to grab everyone’s attention, when we only need to grab one. The man God chose for you to be with. And trust me when I say, our Father knows best!

Proverbs 5:18-20

May your fountain be blessed,
and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth.

 A loving doe, a graceful deer—
may her breasts satisfy you always,
may you ever be intoxicated with her love.

So, if you want to learn more about modesty, love, lust, etc. I recommend you to read this wonderful book.

Bible Verse of the Week || Bullied because of Jesus?

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Matthew 5:11

“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account.

Though I haven’t been bullied for being- what some people call a ‘Jesus freak’, there would be a time in my life where I would… and I don’t know if I would be ready to confront that yet. I tend to be easily annoyed, angered, and very sensitive, it scares me that I might lose my temper and say or do something I would regret. And there are also times when I hesitate to talk about God because I am afraid of rejection and people teasing me for being so ‘religious’ when that is not even the point.

But I do have these very rewarding moments where I gather every courage I could get and share the word of God to my friends and family- knowing that if I failed, I have done my job and God will do the rest.

There was this time when I sat down beside my mom’s step father who held a cigar on his left hand, “So…” he suddenly spoke, blowing away a puff of smoke that faded to the air. I watched mesmerized as the smoke danced around, but the undeniable rapid beating of my heart confirmed to me that I was very nervous about what he would say “You’re a born against huh?” he asked whilst bringing the cigar to his mouth and taking a deep breath. I chuckled a bit feeling slightly amused from his mistake and also slightly offended, “Its born again- not against” I corrected uneasily, then wondered silently if I should talk and what I would say if I did. “Do you believe in God?” I asked and he replied with a ‘yes’, “Then why do you drink and smoke?” I continued, hoping I have not offended him with this question. I do not recall what he said to be exact- but what I do remember is being a little sad, disappointed and nervous. I stuttered a lot and talked with caution, making sure I didn’t say something wrong or to offend.

This was my first encounter with talking about God to someone- not so close- or a family member. I was disappointed with myself and when our little chat ended, that was the time when I thought thoroughly about what I should have said- sadly- I do not remember if I found out what to say or if I know the answer that I should’ve said. Though this is not exactly bullying I will tell you something that would help both our problems…

Psalm 118:6

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?

Romans 8:31

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

We have to be able to ACCEPT rejection and remember NOT to argue- but share the word of God… by arguing it is winning we are trying to achieve, but the truth is, we do not want to win an argument, but we want to win a soul.

I have made a lot of mistakes and would make a bad role model  as a Christian- I do not know if you recall- the banana problem

It was break time and we were in the cafeteria, I had a banana in my lunch box, but it was smashed, so, being me I decided to throw it, then my classmate butts in and said “Don’t waste the food and throw it around, some people cant even afford food” then I got guilty, but I still wasn’t willing to eat it so I said “I’ll give it to my snail then” (cause I have a snail), but my classmate still didn’t approve, she shook her head disappointedly and asked my other classmate next to her about my religion (which was completely unexpected) my classmate replied with disgust clear on her face “Born Again” she spat, and that, just sank my heart… It showed me that I had to be careful about things I do, even small things like banana’s…

Trust me, being a christian isn’t all easy- but it isn’t meant to be easy. To have someone die on the cross for you… that’s some intense and serious love. The people who bully you don’t know who’m they’re dealing with…


P.S. That doesn’t mean they aren’t a child of GOD- the only difference between you and the person is that they aren’t aware of that. Which is where you come in and tell to them the truth. Imagine a dramatic scene where you place your hands on their shoulder, looking straight into their eyes saying “We are brothers/sisters”. I’m just kidding!

God bless you guys and have a GREAT day!

You have a voice, go on and use it. You have a choice, don’t let them shut you down ~JJ Heller


Bible Verse of the Week. You are UNIQUE.

June 28, 2013 (Late post)

You are WONDERFULLY made!

Credits to: Google

Credits to: Google

Psalm 139: 14

Thank You for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous! – how well I know it.

We are all unique and gorgeous in our own way. Like how beautiful the color is of a blooming Lilac and how lovely the fragrance is of a Jasmine. Two different flowers, beautiful in their own special way. But what if I tell you that the Jasmine envies the Lilac for its beauty and the Lilac envies the Jasmine for its scent?

I’ve researched about them, and I admit, Lilacs ARE prettier than Jasmines, but at the same time Jasmines have this wonderful scent that I think is better than the Lilacs. Ha! I would tell them “Look here pretty flowers, you’re all beautiful! But whats the point of living, when you don’t even like how you look, or who you are?”

It is said the the worst enemy of friendship is envy.

To avoid envy…

You have to be grateful with what you have, trust GOD when life feels unfair, and keep focused on GOD’s plan.

1 Corinthians 4: 7

 For What do you have that you did not receive?And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?  

I Had A Normal Dream… which is Weird.

[6:25 AM]


This dream is rather different than what I normally dream about. This one, is more… normal (which is weird), cause usually my dream has a more creepy and futuristic looking place, but instead, it was my house. With the old red carpet. And instead of something eerie or scary, it was me and my family, practicing for church.

In my dream, I was sitting on the sofa with my mom while dad was on the ground playing the piano with Gab on his right side. In this dream, we were all practicing for a song at church, and there was a mobile phone floating in the thin air while it takes video of us. (the only thing unusual)

And we were all smiling… mom even slipped a few notes and went out off tune, but she just laughed. The rest of us did.

Then the most funny part was that dad… dad- did something funny. But I forgot what it was. He farted? I guess? He made a funny face? I feel so bad for loosing this bit. I hope I’ll remember it soon.

The whole reason though, why I’m up early just to share this dream with you is,

1. I want to understand the dream, to know what it meant.

2. Most of the dreams I had were sad and scary.

3. I’m feeling depressed. I’m suddenly comparing my life to others. My friends are out there having fun, while I’m… I’m lying here… on the floor, no kidding 😀 hehe wanted to joke a little, I need to have some sense in me. GOD has a way, I just have to be patient.

4. I love this. The dream to be specific. Me and my family had done it before, singing together for JESUS. And it was- I wanted to cry because I was just so emotional, but not in front of them. I love GOD so much, that He gave me such a beautiful family…

And those are the reasons why, and after writing a whole list of reasons, I realized that, (another lists of reasons coming up)

1. I am blessed.

2. I have a beautiful sister.

3. I have a family.

4. I have friends.

5. I dont know if GOD is trying to show me something with this dream, but I really do hope so.

6. My dream, must’ve been speaking of how it was like when me and my family did things together for the glory of the LORD. Why? Because that red carpet hasn’t been used, since it got all dirty and hard to clean. Though I am not a 100% sure with what my dream means, I really really do want to be with my family, doing things that would glorify GOD.

7. But then again, my dream must’ve been about how we should spend our days with CHRIST, with our family. I just couldnt help but add the fuzzy red carpet into this :D. I bought that carpet… it had a good quality when we were at the mall. Apparently, our scheduled cleaning time isn’t that early, so it got messy quick. *sheepish smile*

So, that basically wraps it up! I’m happy I had this… chat with you guys 🙂 I miss blogging, I really do. And after this, it made me want to blog again. Maybe, because I didn’t have anyone to talk to, and that I have been busy trying to be busy to even talk to GOD.

I am really really sorry Father… I’m sorry…

Can I talk to Him for a minute? I just need some time, and I thought that this is a good one. I wont be typing what I am saying to Him, it is to be heard by His ears only.

Okay, so, I’m gonna end this with a ‘see you later’? I’m not really my witty self today, its 7:03 AM now, and I couldn’t sleep. I wanna keep tying, but I gotta post this 🙂

Umm, I want you guys to pray for me though, and- there’s a lot of people I want you to pray for with me, but for safety reasons (which I rarely do, but I have to keep aware at times) I will change their names- I want you to pray for my Family (mom, dad, and sister), for the church, my Aunt and her pregnancy (her uterus has the shape of a heart, and the baby will have trouble growing), my Aunt orange and her husband, whatever their difficulties are (she wouldn’t tell), my friend Jim for feeling so alone, left out, and jealousy, and lastly my grandparents, Apoy Lolli ,who is 90+ in age, but still going strong and Nanay Mari, who is 80+ and has some problems here and there, but through our Lord Jesus Christ, nothing is impossible!

Thank you my lovlies 🙂 God bless!